I'm at work right now and my shift doesn't start till 4:00 am..oh boy, God grant me strength to go on...I haven't had a decent night's sleep aversion's I crashed my car. I begin to think that my stupidity somehow has become my greatest unfolding.
In the most recent events in my life's journey, I've done what I perceive to be the things that would take me places and reach my goals WHAMM!!! smoke rising, temperatures flaring...What goals? Reflecting back a few months ago and looking at what I have right now, I feel that something lacked. Everything just ran by me and moved so fast that I forgot how to live my life . I got too comfortable with everything that was happening that I forgot how to breathe...
Early this evening as soon as I got to work, I decided to splurge some of what was left of my riches on a cheap ass snack that would hopefully get me by during my "pre-shift coffee break" later around 3:00am. I suddenly bumped into one of my teamleads, who was killing his last few hours in Manila because he's to fly to UK for training on a new account tomorrow I think. He saw through me..
It cut so deep because I didn't know that it was quite that obvious to begin with. I took it as a chance to somehow have a wider perception of what is to come and what may be there already that I may have overlooked.
In a manner of speaking, I guess this was one of those ; "Don't forget to see if your feet are still on the ground." kind of reminder. I took what precious commodity I could salvage and abused it's being. Careless of what people think, careless of what tomorrow may bring, I was looking straight unto fear's eyes...And in that one brief moment, I was astonished to find that there I was picking myself up once again, a pat on the back, and
Life goes on...
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